about a boy...

I feel embarressed about this. Not because I find it strange. But society finds it unacceptable and ridiculous. From my friends' reactions to this news, I feel like this is not something I should be broadcasting. I'm 21 and have a small, tentative crush on a 15 year old boy. Outwardly, I tell everyone that yes, I agree, it's ridiculous. Who does this kid think he is? Thinking he has the same maturity level as me! And yet, when we email each other, I feel a twinge of longing.
this all started very uneventfully.
The day after valentine's day, a nice looking guy sent me a message on myspace. He was very sweet and briefly said that he likes my page, and the paintings on it. (Which happen to be done by my sister) I replied and said thank you, and no I don't think it's weird that he sent me a message just to tell me that. He replied, writing a little bit more this time, I replied in the same fashion. Before you know it, we're conversing through emails with around 5 paragraphs each. We hung out on Saturday. first just him, me, and my sister, and later we went to a friends house to watch Superbad. He's a quiet kid. very sensitive. Sometimes awkward. With big hands that look soft.
The funny thing is, I was perfectly happy with not having a boyfriend. With never having had a boyfriend. Now I am starting to want one.
Because I felt ridiculously flattered when he emailed after we hung out and said that he thought I was pretty.
Because sitting next to him on the couch watching the movie, I had to suppress a strong urge to curl up against him.

He's 15.